Mellowing Out

So, the countdown is nearing it's final days! Jessica's wedding is exactly 8 days away!!! Oh my gosh! May 29th is the happy occasion and we are scrambling to get the last details taken care of. Fun, but a little stressful. I'd like to give a shout out to Sammie-ah who is amazing and has pulled a large amount of this wedding together and to RJ's grandma who has rallied his side of the fam, and to RJ's step-dad for BBQing the pork loins!!! YUM! And to our parents (Dad & Mom Boucher) for helping with whatever they can to make this day special for Jess and her man =)

In the last few months (since being off my meds), I have evened out a little bit. I have figured out (mostly) how to manage my anxiety and anger issues, and I have even learned that if I go to bed at a reasonable hour, and then get some exercise throughout the day, my anxiety and anger are much more manageable or even non-existent for the day! Partial success is still something to celebrate. When anxiety is down, so too is the drive to smoke =)

I want to begin each day this week by getting up at 3:45am, walking or running for a half hour, taking a quick shower, and then getting dressed for the day before I work at 5am each morning. I then will be going to bed at no later than 8:45pm, but HOPEFULLY I will be able to convince my hubby to put the girls to bed (if it is around 8:30pm that they go to bed) and I will be able to go to bed at 8pm =) I would LOVE that!!!

Anyway, my goal in starting an exercise routine is that (along with firming and toning my body and getting into better physical shape that way), I'll be able to decrease the "need" for cigarette intake. I'm not fully on board with quitting, yet, but I know that is the direction I want to take. I suppose that means that this blog will be for other things for awhile =P Never fear, the original goal is still here (just pushed back a little). 

Until next time, lovely readers, peace be with you. May God make His face shine upon you and guide you and keep you all the days of your life! Amen!

Lame

So much for writing once a day, or even once a week! I've been lame lately!!!

I recently started reading another one of Francine Rivers' amazing books (LOVE her!). About three days ago, I started reading A Lineage of Grace, which is about five different women in the Bible who altered history (out of unlikely circumstances) and were amazing women of God. The stories are those of Tamar, Rahab, Ruth, Bathsheba, and Mary. I have read the first two, and I'm in the process of reading the story of Ruth. I never really knew the story of Tamar and although I'm sure there are things added to her story than what is in the Bible, it was very interesting to read a story about a sort of "small" character from the Bible and her influence on history. 

All of the women in the book are directly in the line of Jesus Christ. All of them were unlikely heroines of their time. God is so amazing to use the lowly (like me) to affect the world.

As for not smoking anymore, I have yet to accomplish that. I have decided not to attempt to quit smoking until after I have my meds figured out. I've been kind of an emotional wreck enough as it is. I have made a doctor's appointment for May 31st. It's strange to have an appointment with a doctor! I have not been to see a regular family doctor in over three years. I suppose that I just assume whatever is going on will work itself out (physically speaking). However, I do not mess around with my mental health. 

Anyway, lame as all that is (except the book, of course) and as lame as I have been lately, that's my story.