Day 3 - Oh gee...

Many of you may not know that I participated in a sex/love addiction group for about a year, going through the newly written materials on the subject with Diane Roberts (co-founder of Pure Desire, International). Upon completing the materials, Diane and another gal have begun writing a new book for teen girls on sex/love addiction with which I am helping.

Part of my contribution (along with helping with edits and brain-storming main points), is giving my testimony of my journey and writing out my story that may possibly be used as a thread story throughout the book (not positive yet how it will be worked in). Today, I'm writing a chunk of that testimony, which I began this morning; and I am feeling very agitated and anxious today. I'll need some prayers for not smoking up a storm! I've been through counseling, classes, and small groups to help with healing and I have come a long way, but the story I'm writing isn't always a happy one and is full of triggers to my addictions (including smoking cigarettes). So, prayers are very welcome and appreciated! I'll write more tonight on my progress and how the day went.

PM Update: Okay, so... no good. The day went alright. Nothing major happened. However, I spent the day wading around in this anxious sadness that I have no reason for. I cannot explain why or what caused it. I had that and the fact that two of my girlfriends are here who both smoke to set me off. I smoked 6 cigarettes today =( Sad panda. I know that I will for sure be smoking on Wednesday, as it is my sister's bachelorette party that evening and we'll be having a few drinks. BUT it's at my house and not at a bar so there are really no other dangers other than smoking some cigarettes (haha).

Anyway, thanks for the prayers and well wishes and support. Keep 'em comin'! =) Prayer does help, I know. I bid you adieu until tomorrow.